Sunday, September 13, 2009

Dear friend.

There are certain people in my life that I abso-freakin-lutely love and as I sink further into a shitty situation they are becoming clearer and clearer. Were they there before? Yes. Did I know just how awesome they were? Sadly, no. I had no reason too. Until late, my life has been near perfect. Two beautiful children, awesome husband who loves to spoil me, financially stable, central heating and air... I didn't have much reason to complain, is what I'm trying to say. Because I had no reason to complain I had no need for a shoulder to cry on. And then the world swallowed me whole and spit me back out.

I'm realizing that my friends are amazing. So, this is for them.

Dear friend,

Thank you. Thank you for listening to me cry, bitch, complain, moan, and analyze the shit out of every tiny detail hour after hour. Thank you for praying with me and for me. Thank you for telling me it's okay, even when I'm convinced it's not. Thank you for calling the appropriate people assholes and my personal favorite, douche bags. Thank you for being you-thank you for being the person you let me believe you were. Thank you for understanding why I can't be the friend you deserve right now.

You have helped me in so many ways. At a time when I'm questioning whether I'm lovable or not, you have made it certain. You have held me up when I couldn't do it myself. You have given me back my sense of self. You have allowed me to keep thinking that I am one awesome girl. I am eternally grateful for the fabulousness that is you. You have helped me rid myself of the poison that so rudely pushed itself into my life as of late. So very simply, thank you. I love you. I thank God for you. I only hope that I can return the favor someday.

1 comment:

Adrienne said...

i love you holly! i will always be here for you too...and i know i havent been the best friend to you cause as we know i have issues too but i just wanted to say that you're always be my best friend and i'll always be here for you whenever you need me!